Who am I?

I always wanted to make the most out of my life and become everything that I wanted to be.I remember asking my mother once,"Can I become a lawyer or pursue business?How about a singer or even a journalist?And what about the secret wish of mine to become a superstar?And wondered, that if it really summed up the few things that I wished to be.Little did I know then,that you can choose any career you wanted to pursue,but not really be the person you wanted to be.I'm often forced to think,am I what I wanted to be or am I what others want me to be?No wonder,I don't fail to surprise myself quite often.Freedom of expression and thoughts they say.But,there were times when I feared to express my thoughts to myself,let alone others.Seemed quite strange to me.Was I not my sole mate?Were we not supposed to be one?Maybe not.I was often warned about strangers.But,what about the stranger in me.What about the biggest battle of my life?The battle between the "perfect me"and "not so perfect" me.Guess my well wishers mistook that stranger to be somebody they knew,unknown to the confusion,that this "known stranger" could bring about in my life.There were times when I felt completely deceived by others,not knowing,for how long I had been deceiving myself.Guess I'll never learn to leave those poor souls alone.Wondering why poor souls?I mean,were they really deceiving me or were they just trying to be themselves?And not what I or anybody else wanted them to be.25 years of my life,long enough to know anybody?Then wonder why,I find myself still asking, this rather strange question,who really am I?